Selfless Love

"learn to watch .. learn not to see..but just look.

learn not to speak ... but learn to read even without words.

learn how to stand and lend a hand..

but learn not to ache when your eyes found,

what you wish isn't there, your heart cannot bear.

learn not to care but care coz you love.

breath in life never look back.

at the end of the day, sigh your heart out,

for tomorrow is another day

for your selfless love."

When Reasons Fail

You, I love so dearly.

I cherish so seriously.

I wish you know,

Yes, it's true!

The big wall between us,

The gap of time that surrounds us,

are like drops of water on a bucket,

like teardrops on a heavy rain.

Some words are filled with uncertainties,

A back door you opened for a possibility.

(Oh, how my heart ache,

my world crashed a bit..)

I understand but no!

I chose to love you,

to keep you in my heart.

To take whatever comes my way.

I have no reason

but my love for you.

Perhaps, if there are other reasons,

and those reasons fail,

in waiting for you..

I have another reason to take,

You love me.

That I know.

It's all I believe.

I hope one day we'll find each other.

No more walls,

No more gaps.

No more uncertainties,

But only Us.

We....... just Us!

What a day..!

end song: Maybe It's You

Out of the Deep.....Randomness

I fought our way in to the light.... I was able to secure our lives.

We are happy.

We felt good.

I decided to share my life with others.

I helped others fought their way to the light..... they were able to secure their lives.

They are happy. They felt good.

I was happy. I felt good.

One day I was strolling a mall, I saw a happy family.

My kids are grown up, secured...ready to have their own.

The family I saw was laughing and sweetly touching each other.

I got sad. I felt alone.

I hurriedly left the place...I don't wanna see what others have

that I don't.

But I found myself in-front of two people loving each other.

I began to get annoyed.

What am I doing in places like these?

My unconscious spoke....." they are everywhere....and you are missing them..."

When I was over tasking for my family and others I thought about myself:

"It's my time..time for myself."

But my doors were shut up...I got imprisoned with this sickness.

And I found myself in a vague world I cannot understand.

Akala ko isang araw, mag wa walk ako along an isle to say my vow of love.

Akala ko isang araw, I'll be finally happy.

Akala ko isang araw, magagawa ko na ang mga bagay na pangarap kong gawin.

Akala ko isang araw, ako naman ang tatawa at ngingiti.

Akala ko.... akala ko....

isang araw.... isang araw.....

Nasaan na ang mga akala ko at ang mga isang araw?

Nilamon na ng sakit na ito na tanging himala ng Dios lamang ang makakasolusyon.

Dati...a woman told me as she held my hand.... she said, " I've never seen a woman having such lines on the palm. I only see these kinds of lines on men. I will pray to God that one day you will be happy because you are not destined to be happy. You're only destined to make other people happy."

Parang gusto ko ng maniwala. Imagine, I am sick and yet a lot of people are still blessed by my disposition, by my laughter, by my words, by my strength.

If only they know the tears I am shedding everyday.

The pain I am enduring randomly....

Haizt, no one cares to know. No one cares to listen.

They just like watching my every move.

And ask how I am making it each day with such a strength, such laughs, such smiles, such moves. Then shake my hands to say-- " You are a blessing to me....".

Sometimes, I wish this would end...that I go home but I always choose to stay because of one person I wish to see and be with. Yes, am still hoping for the elusive happiness. But somehow, I get weak. I also lose my sight somehow...and I sleep with tears.

Gusto kong pumunta sa isang lugar na ako naman ang pangingitiin at patatawanin...hindi ng isang clown kundi ng kagaya ng mga nakita ko sa mall at sa jeep. Gusto kong kumilos ng walang batas at patakaran na nagdidikta kung paano ako kikilos.

Gusto kong sumaya isang araw,....hindi pansamantalang saya kundi panghabambuhay.

Gusto kong lumaya sa karamdamang ito.

Gusto ko pa ring tuparin ang lahat ng gusto kong gawin,

para sa pamilya..... kahit natapos ko na.

para sa Lord ..... kahit araw-araw ay ganun na.

para sa ibang tao...... kahit sapat na...

para sa aking sarili......wala pa akong nagagawa kahit isa!

Haizt....

Your Love

Your love,

so true,

so real,

it's here

and there's nothin' I can say,

it's like sugar to my coffee,

and cream to my shakes.

It turns into many colors,

giving shape to lifeless blue.

nothing else

could turn things like this,

like what

your love can do.

Sometimes I know

it frustrates you a lot,

to see me but can't be hold.

to listen to every word senseless

word I say.

to share things as if we're

really sharing,

to stay beside me

as you're really staying.

and when connections fail,

there you are and me,

a big, big gap of wall called distance.

I also sometimes know

your wonderings about me,

the mix feelings of uncertainties,

which you never,never want to disclose.

so you rely on reading me,

on feeling me,

on trusting me,

and on loving me.

But am thankful,

and I feel wonderful to have

such love from you.

so cool, so patient, so lovely.

as lovely as each morning

that comes to my life each day.

as lovely as the stars in the sky,

that shines on my every night.

as lovely as every flower

I see..

as lovely...

as lovely.

So I spend my nights and my days

staying beside you,

and you staying beside me,

really staying.

And I wish you know how much

I cherish each moment with you.

How much I love loving you.

and how many wishes I have,

( Oh, I know most of those wishes are impossible)

Oh, it hurts.

but I cast them anyway..., preadventure.

for your love.

maraming salamat po..

Who Are You

entre: "How Sweet It is To be Loved By You"


Who are you ?
who invaded my world,
made one my two dimensions,
made green my wasted earth
because I didn't care anymore.

Who are you?
who fixed my broken bridges
and connected the broken lines that sounds can be heard again.
who allied my brain and heart
that they agree again.

Who are you?
who planted trees and flowering plants all over my place,
to make living full of feelings.
who watered the withered ones with love and care,
so I will notice again.

Who are you?
who keep the waves rolling and the rain falling,
when I stopped looking out on my territory.
who made me realized the rank I left and so come back.
who kept my candles burning at night.

Who are you?
who changed my mind.
who made me accept that two is better than one.
who filled my world with happiness.
who made each day better ones.

Who are you? Yes, who are you?
and how dare you do that to me... ha ha ha ha

Yes, you are the one who loves me
and the one I love so true.

You, who makes each day a moment to never forget.
I want you not to stop doing those things,
coz I love being hugged by you.
I love being kissed by you.
I love being with you.
and I don't know how it is without you around..
it'll be so hard to breath!

And I want you around me forever and ever.


end: Something In The Way She Moves