My Love Is Like The Rain

It's been two months, away from this blog. Because there are no words to describe what's in my mind, I chose to be silent about what I see, feel and find. I hope the words that I coined here fit...

I wish I could forget and live again,

but no.
It's still here.

here though I'm walking forward without looking back.

here despite the discouragements
and insults.

here seeing no wrong doings
but good things.

needing no explanations nor reasons.

yes, it's still here.

but between us is a river
whose bridge no one dares to cross
to reach the other.

because of fear.

and us became like mist over the waters,
waiting for the sun's heat to rise,
and we will disappear.

but mists we are,
vapors we will become, in the sky
we will be RAIN
that will water the earth beneath.

and my love is like the rain.

Looking Back...Passing By

Running errand for my mother in the city... as usual, naligaw ulit ako. I just can't memorize the route of jeepneys in the city. Instead of reaching SM in Pallocan West, I went as far as Alangilan. Sensing the way was wrong, I alighted from the jeep. There goes me... I decided to walk back to the right way.

I passed by the capitolio... I wondered when will I be able to get inside the Gov. Vi's office? The same way I did in Bulacan's governor's office.

I stepped onto fallen calachuchi flowers along the sidewalk... hmmm the scent! It brings back to my memory our old log house in Valenzuela City, when I was in high school. Sitting on top of our cemented fence, I would watch kids of my age play on the road. I couldn't join because of my RHD! That RHD of mine have wasted my youth! So glad I am out of it!

Passing by a fire tree with lots of flowers.... Oh gee, this tree reminds me of my birthday. Fire trees peaked its flowering in summer! Uhhhh, I love summer! The flowers, the heat, the opportunities summer may bring. Summer always, since I was young, brings me a lot of opportunities and memories. If some people get excited about Christmas, I get excited when summer draws near. Christmas brings me tears because of some unlikely memories, and tension because of gastusin! The "inaanaks" huh! Di pa naman ako sanay magtago, I love being caught and kissed by the hand saying, " Mano po ninang! Ehem, regalo ko!".

Fire trees rekindle the memories of my birthday, vacation and some good people in my life I met in the past who in some way and so short period of time have made me happy.

I finally made it to the right way. Riding the jeep to SM, I can smell the scent of the rain. May amoy pala ang ulan... at siyempre malamig ang pakiramdam. It was a cool scent. I remembered a song I heard:

" God will make a way whether seems to be no way,

He works in ways we cannot see..."

I read that as a verse in Isaiah where God told to His people in their impossible times that He will make a way in the desert.

Because I did face some difficult situations.

Reaching my destination, I felt relief after a long trip.

Time to play Time Crisis!