Always You

If there is one thing I cherish in this world right now,

it's not riches,

it's not honor,

it's not fame,

nor glory nor

the attention of the world...

it is you.

I thank God for every morning I wake up

beside you,

for every night I lay down

with you.

I may find all things I dream of,

but what would it mean

without

you?

Oh how I want my wishes come true,

for I dearly want

that I spend my life with you.

to walk each day,

to face each sunset,

to enjoy this life,

nothing else I will ask for.

You just don't know how much

you make me happy.

In spite of so many misunderstandings.

I count them as nothing,

for they don't mean a thing

compared to what I feel

in your presence.

I cherish you

now

and always

in my heart.

and

it will always

be

you !

Selfless Love

"learn to watch .. learn not to see..but just look.

learn not to speak ... but learn to read even without words.

learn how to stand and lend a hand..

but learn not to ache when your eyes found,

what you wish isn't there, your heart cannot bear.

learn not to care but care coz you love.

breath in life never look back.

at the end of the day, sigh your heart out,

for tomorrow is another day

for your selfless love."

When Reasons Fail

You, I love so dearly.

I cherish so seriously.

I wish you know,

Yes, it's true!

The big wall between us,

The gap of time that surrounds us,

are like drops of water on a bucket,

like teardrops on a heavy rain.

Some words are filled with uncertainties,

A back door you opened for a possibility.

(Oh, how my heart ache,

my world crashed a bit..)

I understand but no!

I chose to love you,

to keep you in my heart.

To take whatever comes my way.

I have no reason

but my love for you.

Perhaps, if there are other reasons,

and those reasons fail,

in waiting for you..

I have another reason to take,

You love me.

That I know.

It's all I believe.

I hope one day we'll find each other.

No more walls,

No more gaps.

No more uncertainties,

But only Us.

We....... just Us!

What a day..!

end song: Maybe It's You

Your Love

Your love,

so true,

so real,

it's here

and there's nothin' I can say,

it's like sugar to my coffee,

and cream to my shakes.

It turns into many colors,

giving shape to lifeless blue.

nothing else

could turn things like this,

like what

your love can do.

Sometimes I know

it frustrates you a lot,

to see me but can't be hold.

to listen to every word senseless

word I say.

to share things as if we're

really sharing,

to stay beside me

as you're really staying.

and when connections fail,

there you are and me,

a big, big gap of wall called distance.

I also sometimes know

your wonderings about me,

the mix feelings of uncertainties,

which you never,never want to disclose.

so you rely on reading me,

on feeling me,

on trusting me,

and on loving me.

But am thankful,

and I feel wonderful to have

such love from you.

so cool, so patient, so lovely.

as lovely as each morning

that comes to my life each day.

as lovely as the stars in the sky,

that shines on my every night.

as lovely as every flower

I see..

as lovely...

as lovely.

So I spend my nights and my days

staying beside you,

and you staying beside me,

really staying.

And I wish you know how much

I cherish each moment with you.

How much I love loving you.

and how many wishes I have,

( Oh, I know most of those wishes are impossible)

Oh, it hurts.

but I cast them anyway..., preadventure.

for your love.

maraming salamat po..

Who Are You

entre: "How Sweet It is To be Loved By You"


Who are you ?
who invaded my world,
made one my two dimensions,
made green my wasted earth
because I didn't care anymore.

Who are you?
who fixed my broken bridges
and connected the broken lines that sounds can be heard again.
who allied my brain and heart
that they agree again.

Who are you?
who planted trees and flowering plants all over my place,
to make living full of feelings.
who watered the withered ones with love and care,
so I will notice again.

Who are you?
who keep the waves rolling and the rain falling,
when I stopped looking out on my territory.
who made me realized the rank I left and so come back.
who kept my candles burning at night.

Who are you?
who changed my mind.
who made me accept that two is better than one.
who filled my world with happiness.
who made each day better ones.

Who are you? Yes, who are you?
and how dare you do that to me... ha ha ha ha

Yes, you are the one who loves me
and the one I love so true.

You, who makes each day a moment to never forget.
I want you not to stop doing those things,
coz I love being hugged by you.
I love being kissed by you.
I love being with you.
and I don't know how it is without you around..
it'll be so hard to breath!

And I want you around me forever and ever.


end: Something In The Way She Moves

There is You

song: " Even if the sun refuse to shine..
Even if we live in different times.
Even if the ocean left the sea...
There would still be you and me..."


Yeah, I just didn't know how it happen-
but there was you....
and now it is you.
What magic is there
that you seem to claim all of my days?
and the spaces that surround me..
It was so abrupt but took so slow.
so slow but abruptly caught my mind.
ha! ha! ha! but it is beautiful!
So beautiful like a dream in a full moon shine!
That when you're not around,
the minutes seems so slow.
the days seem like years.
and am missing you!
What a mystery it is.
only our minds talk,
our sticks walk hand in hand,
our keyboards spell the words,
and voices fall in random with whatever time is left unsaid.
But there is You and Me.
And it's amazing and impressive,
how things work out.
I wish this is not an illusive dream.
Shall I see you?
Shall I let you hold my hands?
Shall I let your kiss on my lips?
Shall I let you dance me all night through?
Shall I spend my days with you?
Oh yes I shall let you.
So you will know,
that there's You..... and there is Me.
and there's Us
here, face to face, together... you and I.
and we're not dreaming,
and it's not virtual.
it's what we're waiting for.
and those moments would be beautiful.
And when time for me to go,
You're in my heart and never leave.
I'll take your love with me.
And my sleep would be forever dreaming of you.
Am glad you're here,
so glad no words to say-
but " I love you."
Am glad there is You..... and Me.


end song : " Even if the world will disappear
Even if the clouds will shed no tear.
Even if tonight was just a dream,
There would still be you and me." <3




activity: testing for new meds... hope this will be negative for any reactions.
3 lab tests to come.
wish my ESR level comes down.

Scrapbook Poems

Music: Okay by Iyaz

One:

What could be more beautiful than
seeing a seed transform into a tiny plant?
...than a bud blossoms into a flower?
... than seeing you just looking at me
without a word nor a hush?

Your smiles send the blues away,
ushering the rain and the storm which I like...
... the rain and the storm remind me of you
and it saddens my heart.


Two:

I wish I could say how much
you mean to my world..
But I cannot
...because I was afraid that you
will just say "No".

Three:

The days are beautiful because you are in my world.
But no longer,
when you stepped out without a word.

Four:

Look at me! Look at me!
and not the other way!
It would be happier if our eyes will meet
and our hearts understand! Ha! ha!

Five:

I am waiting for you....
I wish you will come in summertime,
Where
all flowers bloom,
and clouds are high.
the sun stands gaily
as kites and birds fly by.

Six:

Each day is a pleasure...
to see you
just staring out there,
looking my way.

Can't we just make things happen?
Can we make it real?
Shall we cross boundaries
and meet halfway?

Seven:

When you came,
all my blues wept away,
all my fears chased away.

Oh, I can never look into your eyes,
because you will see my love,
oh, you will see
how much you mean to me.


Scrapbooking is fun... colored papers and cuts out are not the only ones you can use to make your scrapbooks alive, but also with what from your heart and mind...


end music: clumsy by fergie

Loving You

Loving You,

.......is like looking at the horizons,
where the sun rises
and the sun sets..
where thunderstorms and cyclones spring.


Loving You,

........is like looking at the mirror,
where images bounce back..
and all I see is ....me.


Loving You,

..........is like looking at the stars..
so far...so bright
maybe a dream, but it's not!


Loving You,

.......is like looking at the rain cloud..
your presence seem like rain,
you can't touch but you can feel.


I wish loving You,
......is like looking at a flower,
visible to the eyes..
feeling the texture, and oh..the scent!
Then it's truly real.
not a dream.
not and image.
not just a feeling,
but truly here.


Loving Christ,
....is all but real!
you can see.
you can hear.
you can feel.

Thankful

It was a night where my curiosity stroke every corner of my life.
I went here, to and fro.
I browsed every picture, every item, everything,
My head spin when I came across one place,
as if my world blackened, I have no words to say..

but

Am so thankful you came again
and found a reason to stay.
Am so glad you are here
found me again.

The black cloud rolled away
and my head stopped spinning.

and I realized
I've come too far to look back!

My Love Is Like The Rain

It's been two months, away from this blog. Because there are no words to describe what's in my mind, I chose to be silent about what I see, feel and find. I hope the words that I coined here fit...

I wish I could forget and live again,

but no.
It's still here.

here though I'm walking forward without looking back.

here despite the discouragements
and insults.

here seeing no wrong doings
but good things.

needing no explanations nor reasons.

yes, it's still here.

but between us is a river
whose bridge no one dares to cross
to reach the other.

because of fear.

and us became like mist over the waters,
waiting for the sun's heat to rise,
and we will disappear.

but mists we are,
vapors we will become, in the sky
we will be RAIN
that will water the earth beneath.

and my love is like the rain.