Ours is Like This

For you have come unexpectedly in the day
I did not know I will be asked to
let go of my solitary beliefs;
During the heat of summer,
When I was so busy tending my father's flock.


It was after my prayer:
"Look not upon me O Lord because I am black,
because the sun has looked upon me;
My mother's children were angry with me;
They made me the keeper of their vineyards,
but my own vineyard have I not kept." ( Songs 1:5-6)


It was also after the Lord spoke to me,
that He's beginning to make a great change
in my life.
After I have learned to play R.O.S.E., basketball
and Time Crisis.


Who will say that I will have the courage
To cross boundaries and bridges I've never crossed before?
To break the tradition I hold dear in my life?
That is when after I have known you!


There was no sad moment with you.
There was no tiring minute with you.
Each is a piece of good memory,
I wish I could compile in a scrapbook.
But no! It should be posted in our hearts,
And in our minds.. so they won't fade away.


Ours is a sun after a very long rain!
A strike of light in a very dark place.
A laughter in the midst of gloom and dreary,
A pause after a very long conversation.


If I will be asked to describe you-
I would say,
You are a flowing stream
Whose tranquil water brings calmness and peace
To my soul.
A gentle breeze that embraces me
When I sleep,
Bringing me pleasant dreams!


Who would forget you, Eicher?
They may forget you but not I!
I will hold you dear here,
In my heart.
Though we're miles apart,
Nothing has changed.
It's as if it's always the beginning,
And end is far away!


I thank God for sending you in my life,
I may not know how long we'll going to travel
Together in this road of ours,
But I am so happy and thankful,
That once in my life,
I was given the chance to be with
You
And know that life is more beautiful
Than what I have thought it is.


In the middle of our laughs
Sometimes you say my eyes are sad...
It's because I do not want end to come
In our happiness.

After All

I'm back after 3 days of "vacation" in Bulacan. I feel so good moving alone, without pressure, without anything that might curve my mood!

I got this so happy day! But in every sun that shine, there will always arise a rain cloud! Shukks! Spoiled my day!
All I have said was, " I need space!".
It's an alien word to me, but for the first time I crave for it!

I have my share of spolied day! But its so nice to have someone beside you to tell you, " Don't mind it. Be strong! Think about only the good things that has happened to you!"
Yeah, he's right!
And I felt good!

I have learned a lot this day.

1. To be unmoveable, you need to have a lot of guts to stand on what you believe is right and hold on to it until the result that you want is realized!

2. "Today, I am alive, and the whole world is mine."

3. Love is a choice.


eicher,
thank you for being there.

"Life, Eicher is sometimes like this."

Tonight is the first clear evening sky of July! I decided to go for a short walk in the village. I looked at the light studded mountains not far away from our place... it's beautiful! The gentle breeze is lightly touching my face and neck like an embrace.

I stood up in the middle of the village, looked up in the sky and uttered a short prayer. Prayer is what I can do now.

"I wish, Oh God, I am only dreaming... and please wake me up.
I know I can't do anything for this.... please be in control."

I sat down under the banana tree and tried to organize in my mind what is this happening to me.

Life is sometimes like this. It has its way of making you laugh and cry. It also has its way to make you hysterical or placid. Sometimes it has its humor, and sometimes its humor hurts! It breaks! Sometimes it's just so fair, everything seems to fall into right places, and we all laugh unendlessly! However and whatever it may be, there is something to learn... always.

It's like weathering a rock formation-- it can change, or add something to who you really are. As for me, I changed! It etched in me humility. I got a deeper understanding of... love and forgiveness.

But you said, Love is not a destiny. It's a choice!
Yes, I see, and it's true. Everything we do is a matter of choice.
But Newton is also right when he said that in every action, there is an equal or opposite reaction.
Even our choices have equivalent reactions. It's up to us how to bear them! Tama ba ako?
...but our choices are hanging in the air.


Between us is a river with a bridge, none of us can't go up to the other side, because the bridge is broken.
Between us is a giant wall that separates us from even merely our views of each other. Only our voices can be heard!

Life is sometimes like this.

Acceptance is a must if we want to survive;
the right choices, if want to stay happy;
and prayer if we want to keep on moving.

Do not worry, life doesn't end here...

Ours is a Koreanovela

Eicher...

for a short period of time, you add happiness to my secluded world.

for a short period of time, you add laughters to my smiles... yet you said, my eyes can't hide what's in my heart!

Yeah! for a short period of time, my organized schedule and life was broken... by you... to add meaning to my routine!

for a while, I have learned to crossed boundaries and bridges I've never crossed before!

for a while, I have tasted how it is to be free.

for a while, I have known what a wonderful person you are!.... and it's worth my tears!

for a while, I have known how it is to be sweetly loved.... yeah, for you are a sweet person!

who would forget you?

maybe I wouldn't, even if I go a thousand miles away!

for a short period of time, I could say that I bacame a fool.

but it's worth it!


shall we be content in merely glancing at each other?

shall we be content in merely seeing through small chances of looking at each' image in our minds?

but ours is in the wrong time!

in a wrong time!

it's like a koreanovela,

that happened in the wrong time!

and what good will ever come out in a situation that happened in a wrong time?

..... just memories.


( i hope you could read this, so you will know how deep the pain is.)

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